Depressed person takes advice from non-depressed person.

K. They said get out of the house, go to a coffee shop, go be around some human lifeforms.

Well, I’m here, I just paid $7 for an iced latte. The people here are all on their laptops. They look like they are working hard.

Ugh.

What am I doing with my life. How did I end up here…

I thought this would make me feel better? This whole getting out of the house thing?

Okay, I’ll make a list of what I need to do.

1. Get a job
2. Get a job
3. Get a job you won’t quit after 3 months because you suffer severe depression that causes you to lose all motivation but nobody believes you because you’re a smiley Sagittarius and “you’re just such a positive person”

Okay, obviously I’m just in a sour mood. I’m not going to feel better anytime soon.

What am I doing with my life…

I’m going home now.

I’ll just take a nap and wake up when I’m happy again. At least that way I won’t be spending $7 for free Wifi.

I think that, there will be days when the XXL sized bad moods are there to stay. You can exercise, you can socialize with other humans, you can even eat a block of cheese — but if it’s a particularly sticky bad mood, it’s not going anywhere.

And I think that, instead of running away from it, it’s better to lean into it. And do something really creative with low pressure. Like writing poetry, or doodling, or reading a Jenny Han book.

I just wrote a pointless thing about how much I admire people who garden and I feel like 10% better.

I also think that, I’d rather take advice from a depressed person than a neurotypical person. They just get it.

Okay everyone walking into this coffee shop is way too good looking and it’s pissing me off. I’m going home.

For now,

Stay grumpy. Stay creative. Stay alive.

Photo by Cyrus Chew on Unsplash — Image is of a grumpy faced cat.